Eating Disorders: What No One Wants To Talk About

Hihanni Waste! Mitakuyepi!

I’ll be blogging on eating disorders and this makes me feel very uncomfortable but it needs to be put out there. This may not be a hot topic item in DC concerning Native American affairs, this may not be an issue concerning Native Americans in Indian Country, but this is an issue that I have seen personally affect people in Indian Country, friends, family and around the world. This is a problem that affects any background. It strikes women and men. It strikes those who you may think are the strongest people in the world and from the outside looking in look like they are completely healthy and fine. The purpose of this blog is to have my story out there, because the times I have openly talked about it, I received so much support and so many similar stories of struggles. Those people, who I will not name: some native, some not, some runners, and some that are not runners, have said that they thought they were the only ones. The age range has been from 13 to 42! My story was the first step in them admitting to themselves that they had a problem or that they know someone who is going through the same thing. I have heard so many similar and powerful stories, which I hope they all are continuing on the path to recovery, because an eating disorder can be a tough one to fight.

I am blogging on this topic because this is something that I have been dealing with since my senior of high school. I am writing on this topic because it is an issue that no one talks about but will assume that someone may have an eating problem and not say anything, because it’s hard to bring up. This is an issue that I hold very dear to me, because people can die from this disorder. I have seen it mostly effect runners. In a very competitive world, you want to be faster, and the quick little fix is saying, “I just want to lose a little more weight, gain more muscle.” For me, that’s how it started. And it escalated from there during my senior year, freshman year and the first 2 months of sophomore year.

At first it started out as me eating better. Adding more mileage and not adding in more calories. For some reason, that just didn’t click. I cut out a lot of carbs. Ran twice a day. And I started seeing a difference. I started seeing a change and I honestly, felt good. Indoor and Outdoor went very well and got some personal bests and ended my senior year with a bang. No one knew my secret. During that summer, I got obsessed with running and obsessed with calorie counting. I was aware of it, but I didn’t care, because I thought I had “control.” I kept looking at myself in the mirror and enjoyed so much shopping for clothes because it kept reminding me that I was a size 0. Freshman year began and I was lingering around 100-103 and size zero pants. To me, this didn’t bother me. I still kept with the running, and calorie counting. Then a month into college, I was feeling homesick and struggling with that. I missed my family, who were all living in South Dakota and Colorado at the time. School was stressful and the way to handle that stress was to control what I ate.

Second semester began, and I was feeling very drained, no energy, and barely eating anything. I ate only enough to quiet the hunger pains and to not feel dizzy and still kept with running. Luckily, red shirting freshman year was a blessing in disguise. Still, no one knew or made it aware to my knowledge that they did. What started out as starving myself to stay thin (anorexia) and apparently faster, turned into bulimia. So now, I was allowing myself to eat a little more, thinking I’ll get a little more energy, but then I felt incredibly guilty because I thought it was too much, when in reality, the amount I was eating, was more than likely very below average of what I should have been normally consuming. Freshman year ended, my problem got worse and the summer began.

Summer of 2007, was very straining on my training. This obsession was getting out of control and I had to figure out ways to keep it hidden. Running had its good days and very bad. The fact I didn’t get injured through this at all, was completely mind boggling. My boyfriend at the time came to visit me in South Dakota, and it was then that he noticed this problem. He found ways to bring it up and I would get very hostile and change the subject. I refused to believe that I what I was doing was bad and that I kept saying I had this handled. LIES. LIES. LIES. I didn’t have it under control and I was VERY aware of it but I couldn’t stop it. It consumed my life.

Sophomore year started and I was struggling more and more. Workouts still managed to get accomplished but after every run and workout, I was completely wiped out. Finally by Cross Country conferences, my coach had told me to go to the doctor for a check-up, because I had a feeling he knew. I pushed it off because I know the results would show I was deficient. I finally go, and a day later, the doctor calls me in to go over the results and the first thing he says. “How are you alive? What are you doing, Jordan? How have you not given yourself a heart attack?” I completely broke down. My levels were so low and hearing him say the consequences of what I was doing, finally hit me. My boyfriend came to the trainer’s office and hears him say these things to me. We finally tell my coach and he tells me to take the cautionary measures to beat this and get me back to my fitness that he saw in me my senior year. By this time, it is Thanksgiving break and I go to Halifax, Canada with my boyfriend, where he and his family talked with me, and literally helped me through this. I had told my parents what was going on, and in shock and naturally, they were worried. But them being so far away, they couldn’t do anything. I informed them that I could do this. I could beat this. With the help of the Englehutt’s, they made sure I was eating my meals and basically giving me compliments to get in my mind mentally, that what I was doing was good. Over the next couple months, it was very hard and annoying to have my boyfriend follow me around and linger by the bathroom to make sure I wasn’t in there for too long. However, I was motivated to get back on track with training and my eating. Finally middle of second semester, things were good and stable. Had a breakthrough in my running, competed in outdoors, and gained weight to 120 pounds. I’ll admit, at that time, I struggled knowing that and was still terrified of it. I still carried my eating habits of cutting everything into small pieces to make me think that I was eating a lot and very strict with eating still. To this day, I still have these habits.  People think me playing with my food is cute and funny, but little do they (unless they do) know, that this is just one of the many habits.

Sophomore year ended better than I thought and had a great summer. Only a couple people knew, but they were the right people to know because I was finally beating this. Junior, Senior, and my Super Senior year all went great, getting my PR’s and really flourishing in my academics. I changed my eating habits, although still very strict, but at this time, I was obsessed with getting faster, and that meant to me, eating the right food, and not cutting anything out. Things were going great, graduated in 2011 and starting my early adulthood life with jobs and running. The rest of 2011 goes great.

By March 2012, running was going well, work was going well, but my personal life was in shambles. Stress brought back my eating disorder. When I felt I had no control of anything else, I had control of what I ate. So from March 2012-December 2012, I relapsed with my eating disorder. I was making myself throw up. It was a craving I had to cave to because it made me feel better. However, a couple of my friends, some since freshman year of college, and my boyfriend all helped me through this. Some of them had informed me that they knew, but just didn’t know how to approach me on the issue. I then realized that despite how I was feeling, I couldn’t imagine being in their shoes, watching someone they love and care about, intentionally hurting them self. This gave me the motivation to see a nutritionist and to openly talk to them about it whenever I was struggling or asked them to join me in going to the bathroom, to make sure I didn’t make myself throw up, to make sure I didn’t cave into this temptation. I was finally feeling like I was beating this and felt proud of myself.

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Spring of 2013 started off great and the summer was even better. By the fall, I had made the choice to follow my dreams (since I was in middle school) to go to Washington, DC and advocate for Native Americans on health issues and to help elevate our voice. That was the dream. I made it happen by leaving the best comfort bubble ever and adapted very well. I took a job with the National Indian Health Board and my life took off! I involved myself in everything I could, was still training, long hours, and networking like crazy. After about a year, I took time off from running. I wanted to focus on work, and keeping up with training was stressing me out more. By this time, it’s March of 2015. After finishing working on the Hill with Congresswoman Pingree’s office and working in retail at City Sports, I was feeling almost defeated. I felt like I wasn’t living my dream anymore. Along with this, a relationship I was in, was very toxic and mentally draining. Then, the habits started creeping back in, and BAM….. I was making myself sick again. Now it’s May and I landed a job where I help ensure federal funding goes to Tribes/Tribal affiliations with grants to help their projects. I felt I was making a difference and really loving the tribal outreach. I was involving myself in more projects and volunteering more in Native youth issues and events. Running was only happening when I wanted it to but my eating disorder had gone away. Just as I announced in June that I was struggling with this and felt like I had it under control, then in July, it came back. Faster than ever. The toxic relationship I was in but not in anymore since June was at its worst. I poured myself into my friends, my work, my advocacy, but I started to make myself sick again. This was a control and body image issue for me. It wasn’t until October I admitted to myself that I was struggling and this was wrong. So I started to get control of it myself, as usual. However, over the next coming months, felt that to really beat this, I needed more help than just myself. By January of 2016, I sought out a therapist, who has been truly wonderful and I am happy to say that I am on the right track again and motivated more than ever after I started a blog (Native In DC), got a promotion and now training for the Boston Marathon. I’ve started to open up to people (major trust issues), including my parents, and they have been so supportive during this. I only wished I had opened up to them a lot sooner during the summer when hardly anyone knew what I was going through.

It’s February 2016, and this time, it feels different. I am attacking my problem pro-actively and relying on those who have been there for me. This issue isn’t just about being skinny and staying in a size 0, which I am in a size 2 now and at 111 pounds, but it’s a mental struggle, which the therapist is hugely helpful in making me realize. I’m making those connections and feeling like I am attacking the route of this disorder. I feel silly and ashamed that I am still struggling with this at 28 but recently I have had people reach out to me much older, telling me their struggles, and in a sense, makes me feel better knowing that they are still fighting it, but also, BEATING it. They are my role models. If they can beat it, so can I. As I said before, this time it feels different. Things are really falling into place and some exciting things are happening and about to happen. Will the habits completely go away? Maybe not, I hope so, but I can overcome it.

For those who are struggling with this issue or have in the past, just know you are strong, keep those who care about you close and confide in them. Don’t be afraid to ask for help which was my BIGGEST mistake, because I am very independent, and I always know I can rely on myself and only be disappointed in myself. But the more I opened up, the better I felt. My running is going very well despite a 7 day set back spent pool running but now getting back into the swing of things, my eating disorder is non-existent but that doesn’t mean that I am 100% recovered, but I do feel like I am overcoming it. I am feeling proud of myself.  And I’m praying and hoping, that more posts like this and a relapse doesn’t occur again.  It’s still a struggle.  I may be able to have fun and go out to eat, but I am still very aware of what I order or still get those urges, which so far, I’ve managed to not cave into, even when things have been stressful.   I have changed my diet, which I have so much energy from, but also, caving into my cravings of “If I want a Twix candy bar, I’m going to go for it,” “If I want one more slice of pizza, I’m going to go for it,” or “I am not going to feel guilty about eating Speculoos Cookie Butter with a spoon right out of the jar.”  Family and friends are everything! I give so much thanks to them!

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To end this story,  I am on the path to recovery.  I hope this helps for anyone out there!  Like before, feel free to reach out to me as some people have. I really hope this breaks the social stigma on this topic and to not have it be looked at as a taboo but something that we can safely talk about while being encouraging and supportive.  Please don’t hesitate to contact me at nativeindc@gmail.com or on my Facebook Page ( Native in DC ).

Love you guys! Mitakuye Oyasin!

Diabetes and Obesity in Indian Country: An Epidemic Rising and What Can Be Done

Childhood obesity in the United States has reached epidemic levels. Nowhere is this
more evident than with American Indian and Alaskan Native (AI/AN) children and youth, who suffer from overweight and obesity issues at a significantly higher rate than any other group. Obesity is costing around 147 billion (2008), primarily due to medical spending, which 37 percent of that was spent on the AI/AN population by the Indian Health Service. Obesity is a primary cause of Type II diabetes. According to the American Diabetes Association, the cost of diabetes in 2007 was $174 billion nationally, compared to the $245 billion in 2012. These numbers reflect a 41 percent increase in just five years. AI/AN people suffer from obesity-related Type II diabetes at the highest rate of any other US ethnic group. The alarming rise of childhood obesity in the AI/AN population has many resultant economic, personal and cultural costs. Thus, efforts to ameliorate childhood obesity have the potential to have a broad impact across Native communities and their constituents.
Obesity: Prevalence and Consequences in Indian Country
Obesity can lead to diabetes, hypertension, and cardio-vascular disease, sleep apnea,
asthma and a variety of other medical, psychological and economic issues. Alarmingly, AI/AN children suffer from obesity at much higher rates than children in the general US population. For example, 45% of AI/AN children between the ages of 2-5 years old are overweight or obese compared to 12.1% in the general population. A similar disparity is found up to 18 years of age (AI/AN obesity rate = 31% compared to 18% for the general population age 6-18). A recent study that was conducted on American Indian 2nd graders in South Dakota, New Mexico, and Arizona, concluded that 20.3% of the children are overweight, while 28.6% are obese. According the United States Department of Agriculture, AI/AN children are nearly twice as likely to suffer from food insecurity, obesity, and Type II diabetes, than the average non- AI/AN child in the US. In fact, AI/AN people have the highest age-adjusted prevalence of diabetes among all U.S. racial and ethnic groups. There seems to be a precipitous rise in the prevalence of diabetes among AI/AN youth: There was a 68% increase in diabetes diagnoses in 15 to 19 year old AI/AN youth in the 10-year period between 1994-2004. These are troubling numbers, especially given the propensity for obese children to become obese adults and the subsequent cost to personal achievement, self-esteem and social welfare.
Food Insecurity
Food insecurity as defined by the USDA is “constraints leading to serious problems such
as the family suffering hunger or being unable to purchase a balanced diet or enough food for their children or the parents skipping meals so the children can eat”. For children ages 6-12, food insecurity is related to a weakening immune system, school absences, grade repetition, tardiness, aggression, anxiety, poor mathematical skills, psychosocial dysfunction and poor social interaction skills. It is also associated obesity. Food insecurities occur in Indian Country for a variety of reasons including not having access to grocery stores, often resulting in a diet featuring foods commonly found in convenience stores. Convenience store food prices range between 30- 50 percent higher than similar products in grocery stores, which often leads to lower access to affordable and healthy food options that lead to a diet high in processed food, high in calories but generally possesses poor nutritional content. The USDA provides programs such as the Food Distribution Program on Indian Reservations (FDPIR) and Commodity Supplemental Food Program (CSFP) to cater to those who need it. These programs serve about 85 percent of some Tribal communities and are targeted to relieve food insecurity. While such programs target hunger, however, they may not provide the constituents of a healthy diet. The list of healthier alternatives provided by the USDA has greatly improved over time, but the provided foods are generally high in salt, sugar and fat, encouraging a diet that is high in complex carbohydrates and other ingredients associated with obesity. Regardless of the source, the availability of the constituents of a healthy diet is often beyond the reach of many AI/AN families.
Preventing and Managing Childhood Obesity and Diabetes at the Tribal Level
American Indian and Alaskan Native children and youth are some of the country’s most
vulnerable, but most promising, individuals. In addition to the development of a strong research base to guide interventions, culturally relevant efforts to promote healthy eating and increase physical activity are essential. With targeted efforts to develop and implement evidence-base strategies in Indian Country, obesity and diabetes can be prevented.
Honey We Shrunk The Kids
Prevention and managing childhood obesity and diabetes can be accomplished through
healthier eating and exercising. Access to better food may be a problem for most tribes, but there are ways to help such as Tribal gardens. In realization of the consequences to their people, many Tribes and Tribal members endeavor to return to a more traditional diet. The number of Tribal gardens has been increasing as a cost effective alternative for a healthier diet and a way to bring people together for the common good, connecting families, the youth and elders. For example, the Coharie Indian Tribe has two tribal centers, each with two community gardens. In addition to the healthy food they provide, the gardens have brought the youth and the elders together resulting in an increase in participation in Tribal activities. In collaboration with the USDA, the Tyonek Tribe in Anchorage, Alaska, has had marked success with the implementation of a community garden. Planting events in the school have encouraged the participation of children and the promotion of healthy eating habits children. The U.S. Department of Commerce Economic Development Authority’s Public Works and Economic Adjustment Assistance Programs provide investment assistance for communities who develop a sustainable Comprehensive Economic Development Strategy (CEDS). The
CEDS is the outcome of a regional planning process designed to guide the responsible economic growth of an area by leveraging community strengths and participation toward definable goals. In a unique and promising strategy to impact the health and economic well-being of their community, the Standing Rock Sioux Tribe recently included ways to improve access to healthy food, including farmer’s markets, community gardens, fitness/recreational programs and youth programs in their CEDS. The Standing Rock Sioux Tribe is paving the way for a new path to address many of these critical issues by targeting a critical issue within their community.
Move It and Lose It
Increasing physical activity in schools and safely within communities is also an effective
strategy to combat childhood obesity and diabetes. Increases in recess time, physical education opportunities and access to extracurricular after school programs that highlight physical activity have been proven to positively affect obesity as well as build a community. Over 45 percent of children in grade 9 through 12 watch more than 3 hours of television on a daily basis. Given the association between obesity and sedentary activities, alternatives to television watching are important to consider. Physical activity for children youth is key to establishing life-long healthy habits, the earlier the better. Accessibility to proper educational materials to encourage physical activity is problematic in Tribal communities. However, even when the appreciation and motivation for physical activity is evident, access to facilities, from gyms to safe neighborhoods in which to play, are often not readily available or accessible. To be successful, access to fitness facilities needs to be provided within every Tribal Community ad these communities are creatively prioritizing these priorities. In January of 2014, the Dine Community Advocacy Alliance (DCAA) initiated a 2 percent tax on junk food and elimination a pre-existing 5 percent tax on fresh produce, water and healthier foods. The revenue will be used to start wellness/fitness centers and provide programs on decreasing the obesity rate
that has plagued this Tribe. In a community where many children are considered obese, this new legislation opens the door for essential revenue to combat this issue. This is just one of the ways that Tribal communities are seeking to address this important health crisis. Some concerns about the definition of junk food and how to process/monitor the tax, led to a veto.

On the bright side, the Healthy Dine Nation Act of 2014 was passed and signed into law on November 24, 2014! “This administration has advocated for healthy living since we took office. Vice President Jim has run across this great Nation all four years of our administration,” President Shelly said. My time at the National Indian Health Board, I really saw first hand the dedication VP Rex Lee Jim and President Shelly had on fighting diabetes and obesity in their community.  It’ll be interesting to see how this unfolds as time goes on and if it something other Tribal communities can implement.
Policy Proposals and Partnerships
Clearly, much needs to be done to combat childhood obesity in Indian Country. One of
the greatest challenges to moving forward, however, has been collecting adequate data for this population. Good data is essential to developing targeted strategies and investing in the most effective interventions. The most important task ahead is providing the strategy and resources to do this right. Much more research is needed to guide responsible interventions and cultivate the research base to determine the best practices.

On October 23rd 2013, Rep. Diana DeGette introduced HR 3322, “Eliminating Disparities
in Diabetes Prevention, Access and Care Act of 2013.” This legislation is an effort to “to
prevent and treat diabetes, to promote and improve the care of individuals with diabetes, and to reduce health disparities, relating to diabetes within racial and ethnic minority groups; African Americans, Hispanic Americans, Asian Americans, Native Hawaiian, Pacific Islander, and American Indian/Alaska Native communities to the Committee on Energy and Commerce”. This bill will address key concerns with regard to obtaining the information needed to address important issues surrounding the childhood obesity epidemic. Another key strategy is the development of synergistic partnerships between groups already committed to these efforts. There are is diverse array of established networks that show promise with respect to working with AI/AN communities on initiatives focused on reducing childhood obesity in Indian Country. Below is a partial list of some of the some of the promising programs that seek to target childhood obesity and diabetes in Indian Country at the nutritional, educational, and physical activity levels.

  • Michelle Obama’s, “Let’s Move in Indian Country” is one of several promising
    programs for combating childhood obesity in AI/AN children and youth. Let’s
    Move in Indian Country” is supporting the Tribal leaders as they create food
    policy councils and other initiatives within Tribal communities.
  • The Strategies to Overcome and Prevent (STOP) Obesity Alliance is an
    organization that targets cultural barriers and uses a systemic approach to promote
    efforts to combat issues like childhood obesity and diabetes.
  • The National Institute of Diabetes and Digestive and Kidney Diseases’ (NIDDK)
    Diabetes Education in Tribal Schools (DETS) program has developed a K-12
    curriculum specifically targets at AI/AN children and youth in an effort to
    translate research about Type 2 Diabetes in a culturally appropriate and effective
    manner.
  • Together Raising Awareness for Indian Life (TRAIL) is a partnership between
    the Indian Health Service (IHS), the National Council of American Indians
    (NCAI), Boys & Girls Clubs of America (BGCA), Nike, and FirstPic, Inc. This
    grant funds 50 Native American Boys and Girls Clubs and has, to date, served
    over 12,000 Native American children and youth in over 80 tribal communities.
    Many tribes lack the funding or motivation for invest in and maintain a Boys and
    Girls Club. The Penobscot Indian Nation Boys and Girls Club, for example, faces
    many challenges as a result of inconsistent funding and the subsequent employee
    fluctuation. Consequently, tribal youth cannot count on a safe and consistent
    venue for physical activity and extra-curricular experiences. This group has
    partnered with TRAIL to improve access to quality programming and improved
    health education.
  • The Notah Begay III Foundation (NB3F) was created to prevent Type 2 diabetes
    and its leading cause, obesity by promoting research and prevention efforts
    focused on physical activity. NB3F has re-introduced the native sport, lacrosse to
    Native communities to offer both a connection to culture as well as much needed
    exercise. NB3F is partnered with IHS and Nike N7, where more prevention
    efforts are being taken seriously, recently resulting in signing the Memorandum of
    Understanding at the White House in November 2013 between the NB3F and the
    Acting Director of IHS, Yvette Roubideaux.
  • Partnership for a Healthier America was founded in 2010. It partners with the
    private sector to promote the health of our nation’s youth, targeting childhood
    specifically. These efforts are focused on making healthier nutritional choices
    affordable and accessible as well as promoting physical activity, such as Play
    Streets Program. Play Streets Program is created to provide safe places for
    children to play. While no such program is targeted toward AI/AN communities
    at present, this organization’s efforts hold great promise for Tribal interventions.

Native Voices: What You Can Do
There are concrete actions that can be taken by individuals, families, institutions, and
policy makers to ameliorate the potential for obesity and the issues associated with it. The easy availability of affordable nutritional choices and an active lifestyle, for example, play important roles in preventing obesity and can be greatly influenced by appropriate healthy policy and habits. Advocating for improvement in the availability of affordable and healthier foods is just the one step in developing a healthier lifestyle. Collaborating with organizations to provide better quality commodity foods to Tribes, raising funds for Tribes to build community gardens, addressing and investigating food insecurity issues are all part of a broad-based plan to combat childhood obesity. It is essential that we advocate for state and local policies that promote good nutrition and increased physical
activity, such as providing safe sidewalks and running/bike trails. Local and national efforts to increase the nutritional content of available food choices, education for communities on the effects of poor diet and inactivity on the long-term health of children, and increased resources for early medical intervention are essential to curbing this epidemic. Working together at every level, allows for this epidemic to be reversed and paving a healthier, more vibrant path for the American Indian and Alaska Native youth and communities.

Lakota Winyan: 26.2 Miles to the Finish, Week 17

Hihanni Waste! Good Day!

The Boston Marathon is creepily approaching. And I say bring it. Don’t let week 17 fool you.  Yes, I am entering Week 17 of workouts.  The workouts have progressed, I have been feeling stronger (despite a recent cold), and starting to feel like myself again!  Week 1, was the basic low mileage week with 2 workouts that included 200 repeats with my best friend Stan from home, to a 25 minute Fartlek of 90sec ON/30sec OFF. Prior to Week 1 workouts, I was running for about 6 weeks  consistently with a day off every week, at my own pace, getting back into the swing of things.  As I mentioned in my blog announcement of the Boston Marathon, I had some hard times in 2015 all while battling a relapse with my eating disorder.  Thankfully, I am in control of it, my life is on right track, balancing everything, and motivated all the more to make sure I don’t have a set back.

I’m sure you’re wondering about all the weeks prior to Week 17…. but for times sake, I’ll just start with the last three weeks since the announcement.  Marathon training is something I have been looking forward to for the last few years but didn’t think I would be starting it this soon, but hey, I’m ready for it! My thoughts? I freaking love it! So far.  I get excited when I see my workouts from Coach, that there are doubles, shakeouts, hills and enjoy seeing the time for runs being extended from the 50-90 minute range.  Anticipation has been building for those Sunday long run days or 2 plus hour runs and then be completely useless to the world for the remainder of the day and just recover, rest, and eat.

Working on my endurance is key and building that threshold to consistently run at a good clip for an extended amount of time, just benefits me and gets that marathon pace closer in reach.  As the weeks have come and gone, I’ve found myself feeling that tired feeling, the leg heaviness, the soreness, the breakthroughs, the time dropping, the muscle definition, the need to buy clothes that fit now, and the excruciating hangry and fungry moments as I want to eat all the time.  The success to full time training, full time work, blogging, volunteering and trying to have somewhat of a social life (this is where priorities come in to play!), I would like to thank my family, my friends, new New Balance shoes, Tanka Bar, bananas, kale, Dunkin Donuts coffee, Crunchy Speculoos Cookie Butter, tons of chicken, liquid iron, compression socks, and naps! Weird assortment, I know.  There’s obviously plenty more to note, but I will save you the play by play of all the details of my eating habits, my snacks that I pack in every purse and backpack to “try” to avoid the whole snickers commercial moments. My family and my closest friends know that when Jordan doesn’t get a snack, you do whatever possible to make sure she doesn’t slip further into hanger.  It’s gotten to the point in the last few years that my parents and a few friends, pack extra snacks and not tell me, because they know I’ll quickly go through my snacks, all to avoid the hangry and quiet person I become when I am starving. Thanks guys! You rock.

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What am I learning? Patience.  This is something I am working on and getting better at.  I haven’t always been the best at this but with marathon training, you can’t force it or rush it.  You must believe in yourself, believe in your coach and the training, and it will fall into place, in time.  It doesn’t matter whether you’re an Olympian or a couch to 5k runner, if you have a goal and you’re focused, do it, and train smart. I have my goals for the Boston Marathon.  I have my realistic goal and the goal I am training for in workouts.  As to what that time goal is… maybe I’ll reveal those in time. But for now, no pressure.  Right now, it’s only me, my mind, my sanity, and the miles I log on my favorite running paths here in DC.  Also, since I am running for Billy Mills and native youth, a big part of my focus and motivation is for them and reaching my fundraising goal of $6,500! So, if you can, please click on the link (best to do so through a computer since link doesn’t work all the time on a phone), and donate or share the page!

Training has been going really well! And my body is adapting to it and eagerly awaiting what this weeks workout sessions will be.  I need to become less of a night owl which is hard, due to a plethora of projects I am working on or creating… can’t stop, won’t stop.  But I’ll figure it out!

As for workout day tomorrow, I know hills were mentioned by coach, that’s a joy! So, here is what the last 3 weeks of training have looked like for me:

Motivation from the last month? Family and my trip to Oregon (it’s a runner thing)! Family has always been my motivation, so my trip back home to South Dakota was truly great! Felt amazing to run in Lakota country, in the snow, and on those back country roads where my Ate drove the whole way with me! And Oregon, well, as I said before, it’s a runner thing.  But I didn’t expect to fall in love with more than Eugene/Tracktown, USA.  I fell in love with that coastline, the atmosphere, and the energy.

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Last but not least, the one thing I have been making sure I do every day whether it’s on a run or in the office, is to HAVE FUN and listen to a good playlist! I suggest adding Disarm You (ft. Ilsey) by Kaskade and Pick Your Poison (ft Kay) by Diplo and Datsik! Aside from my own expectations, ambitious motivations, my family, my friends, my cats, and speculoos cookie butter… it can be difficult to stay on track and not get stressed.  It can get tough, and I have encountered some rough patches, but with balance and putting one foot in front of the other, it will all work out.  And having fun, outside of all this or during work or a run, makes it that much easier and less stressful! So, to all my running/fitness peeps, have fun and don’t forget to just get weird, dance it off, and be a total goofball! Enjoy! Happy running! Happy training!

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Mitakuye Oyasin!